I have one friend on LiveJournal who it it feels like is ignoring me. Now, I looked back through a few recent entries and there were a bunch of comments she didn't reply to, so maybe I'm being too sensitive, but in the particular one that's bothering me she replied to everyone but me. It did occur to me that I used some salty language in my comment (she was posting about a situation that upset her a lot, and I was commiserating...and I swear a lot), and she's at work, so maybe she felt the language was inappropriate or maybe didn't even get the email notification because of filters, but *if* that's the case, she would still see it when she opened the page to reply to everyone else, so I would hope she would ask me to please watch my language rather than just ignoring my comment (I ended up deleting it after she'd replied to like ten other comments, kind of feeling snitty, but also in case it was a problem for her, now it's gone). I've long felt not very connected to this friend, but also know that I can be extra sensitive to perceptions of rejection due to Childhood Issues, so maybe it's nothing.
In addition, I've been really blue lately--I'm prone to Seasonal Affective Disorder, and the short days have been hitting me hard, plus we've had a lot of rainy days lately. Anybody who's suffered from depression knows the pattern depression->insomnia->fatigue->lack of energy->inactivity->letting things slide->even lower mood->wash-rinse-repeat. So that also amps up the sensitivity to all that social stuff. I don't like myself right now, so it feels like others don't either.
Anyway. I just wanted to vent a little bit.
(do we have a shin-kicking smiley? we should! 
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